musical of nonsense

2010-04-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

As you all know, fb got tihs page: Im going to sleep. *person you like comes online* ..sleep can wait :) ♥

I realised this is true when my classmate took her wallet and everything and when she suddenly said "toilet can wait toilet can wait".

It goes th same for me too. Sleep can wait.
Love's my important! ♥

2010-04-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

My dear friend, one day if you ever read this, I'm sorry to talk about your aunt and uncle. But I'm definitely not talking about you. I stil love to be your friend, just that I'll never work in that company again.

Well, recently people has been asking me why i nvr work on weekends when i say that i be working at expo on sat and sun - 10th and 11th.
So yeaa. Not that I'm really angry at my fren, but rather, i'm angry w her aunt and uncle.

On friday I was working at suntec. They kay kiang go rent a stall to purposely sell drinks only. Of course, business is bad. Not only is it bad, it is very very very bad.
Her uncle, then blame me for not speaking up enough and not promoting the drinks. So sorry that I am unable to drag any customers to the front of our stall to promote those ~~disgusting~~ drinks to them.

Previously when I was working at PS, there are already complaints of the drinks alr.
1. Not nice
2. It's all artificial sugar
3. How can it be a healthy drink when there are so many artificial sugars and colouring inside? Though it IS a high fibre drink.

There are already no customers who are willing to try, let alone buy. And her uncle actually indirectly blamed me for not promoting the drinks! He himself even told my colleague who was working w me this: "I think ah, next time we (the drinks) dont do suntec sales liao"

Yes, he got a taste of his own med despite me and my colleague telling him that there's no one buying the drinks. What's best? He couldn't accept the fact that no one buys the drinks. He went to serve one customer and that customer drank the sample and gave an ultimate disgusting face saying that the drink is *&%^$ and went away but he just asked "dont like ah?" and then turn back and tell me "some customers just dont like this drink".

Gosh. Can anyone just tell him that he should just close down and stop selling those drinks? You go sell at PS maybe ppl will buy, but is SUNTEC LEH! Everyone there, okay, not everyone, but 80% is all old aunties and uncles. They dont even know how t appreciate these kind of things and why force them if they dont like?! If I'm being forced by th boss, i cfm take the sample and splash on the boss. Irritating!

Who likes to get nagged by a boss who sees the truth but refuses to accept the fact? My apologies that I didn't manage t hide my glum face well. But which idiotic asshole likes to get scolded and nagged at when they are working on their birthday? Still dare use angry tone and say "WHY YOU GLUM FACE? NOT HAPPY I SAY YOU AH?" Bastard. Who likes to get nagged?

Next thing.

On friday, it's my birthday. I was happy (:
But when I reached suntec, I couldn't gain entry. Damnit, how am i suppose to gain entry when I nvr work there before and no one picks up my calls?
So th door opened, ppl went in to take goodie bags. I have to squeeze my way in. And when I finally reached the stall, all I got was a black face asking me "WHY YOU SO LATE?" I told her that I called her and know what? All she said was "I'M BUSY I'M BUSY" in chinese and a angry tone.

I tried to help out at her stall. And she told her husband to bring me to the drinks stall, followed by saying "she got take commission one". So yeaa, for no reason I got to promote those disgusting drinks to ghosts and air.

Lastly.

I thank the one who helped me to knock off at 6.30pm. I thank her. No, not that lady boss. It's my colleague. My colleague called boss and asked if she should give me my pay for th day. At that time I alr thinking why give me th pay when I'll be working at expo on sat and sun..

My colleague told me to get my commission for th work from 1st to 4th. So yeaa, I got it. It was supposedly to be $51. But damnit. I only got $43 cause that lady boss tell me that shirt need pay $8 and is company rule. Damn you. I never even wore that ugly shirt before and initially they told me that the shirt's FOC. KNN. Next time if any of this happen to you, ask them to write it down on a piece of paper PLUS SIGNED! Scam my $8!

Okay, so I got my commission alr. Then she said "tmr..."
And I cut in and say "go expo work."
GUESS WHAT?
This is her reply "tmr and sun no need you to go expo liao. we found someone to help already."

SERIOUSLY. I nearly flare up at her.
How can one company work when they don't even have any credibility?
Don't come telling me that I never tell you I cannot work on sat and sun. I did. And on the last day at PS, you 2 idiots CONFIRMED with me working at expo on sat and sun!

No credibility at all.
Boss nag like a crazy woman cum broken recorder.
Boss and lady boss never even find out truth of why sales poor then blame me.
Please hor, if you 2 never work as promoters before, dont talk so much. If you 2 don't know what is CONSUMER BEHAVIOR, don't even open your mouth and criticise your prommoters for not promoting.

FYI. Even my colleague also heard of why people work in this company as promoter then leave already.

Those aunties that they engaged, is seriously *&^%$#$%^&.
Do they get their pay? Do they get commission?
Why they command and order other people so much one?
Please hor, only if they VOLUNTEER to work for you, then they have the rights to command and order other people to do work. Else, they are nothing but a piece of useless shit that does nothing but relies on family connections. These are useless people. Boss' sister? SO WHAT? That doesn't give them any special powers to abuse.

Hahs. Talk so much also no use.
Consumers feedback about your products, how much do you even know of it? I doubt even if you know, you don't even give a damn of it.

2010-04-01T01:10:00.001+08:00

I put on perfume when I'm at work. No, not from home.
And the smell of it is the best among cheap perfumes.

T_T; I'm tempted to buy >.<

2010-03-13T12:07:00.002+08:00

1. I slept for less than 4 hours - slept at 5.45AM ++ to 9.30AM. (Y)
2. I woke up, first thing ask him about where we go later.
3. He told me he want go home (Y)
4. Feeling pissed of because of family matters, I kup his phone also (Y)
5. He's alighted at woodlands, thinking of coming to find me.
6. I felt happy, but he say I chased him away.
7. Enrolment booth not open (Y)
8. Need make another trip down on monday (Y)
9. When I call him, he alr at westmall.
10. Even more pissed off, cannot ask and wait for me one. Don't know how to call and ask somemore. (Y)
11. Okay, maybe cause I kup his phone a lot of times liao.

Lastly, everyone chose to abandon me for today.

2010-03-11T01:03:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you what kind of person i am.

i WHINE. Big time.
I'm that kind of bitch who goes on whining and whining until your head goes round and round.

I'm a loser, a sore loser.
Yes, that's right. I'm one. Are you, too?
I cannot tolerate people being better than me.
No sportsmanship, in conclusion.
I do not have that in my genes.

I can't get along with girls.
Face it. If I can, most probably the person is tolerating and giving in to me.

I'm fucking fat and i whine about it all the time.
I see nice girls and I'll go "i wish i'm like them too!"

I'm fucking sarcastic with my words if my mood is not good.

My mood is rarely good.

So on and so forth. There're even more. But I shall not say everything now.

Anyway, everywhere is finding people w experience or can drive or property agents.
No jobs for losers like me.

2010-03-08T20:53:00.005+08:00

I realised I'm someone with no talent at all.
Maybe whining is my talent?

All bad and no good.

I can't even afford what I want.
As well as what I need also.

Epic phailure.

Can someone just slap me?
I just wallowed in self-pitying again.

2010-03-03T20:58:00.002+08:00

At times when I'm like this, it's bestie whom I could talk to instead of you.
Why?

You just seem so busy to me, be it work or fun.

2010-02-26T02:53:00.000+08:00

My msn don't save my messages cause I chose not to.
So yeaa. Nothing for you to read.

2010-02-25T01:37:00.002+08:00

SUPER DUPER INSECURE.

2010-02-22T02:09:00.002+08:00

Love playing scrabble w babyboy's family!
I may be defeated but wow! I feel so fun and happy that I won't show that sore-loser attitude! =x

YES. I am a sore loser. I won't deny this :D

&&& POPO IS SUPER CUTE LAH! :D
Ever since she asked babyboy if i'm his girl, she has been saying hello and byebye to me everytime I see her! :DD

2010-02-21T11:47:00.002+08:00

Finally selling away my w960i!
With a loss of $30 ):
Ohwell. That phone, loss of $30, i think is small case liao. Hehs

Going babyboy's place ltr!
Yesterday he tell me "tmr come my place for lunch okay? For lunch only."
Confirm got something on de luh!
So yeaa. Managed to find out some stuffs.

Went for an interview yesterday!
Wlao. Need take typhoid job, buy black leather shoes (hopefully won't bite my legs) &&&. I can't rmb liao ):
AND WHAT JOB IS IT?
It's banquet if not restaurant! :<

I said I never ever wanna do F&B!
But then hor, the pay is higher than what I get in Singpost!
Hmm, 80c more. Hehs
Don't be little that 80c okay!
1hr = 80c
10hrs = $8!
100hrs = $80!
150hrs = $120!

See the diff? Hahahahas. Why up to 150 hrs only?
Cause idk when will I be able to work up to 150 hrs. lols

Well. Gotta prepare to go out now.
TATA!

2010-02-12T00:36:00.000+08:00

CUTE NOT?! :D
Bought floral dog and the gingerbread man and made them into rings!
<3 gingerbread man ring! :DD

2010-02-08T23:50:00.007+08:00

It feels good to wallow in self pity at times.
Like now.

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2010-01-31T01:35:00.002+08:00

Woooooo!
It's been a long time ever since I last blogged, right?

Ohwells. I'm only gonna talk about some stuffs and off to sleep I go :D

Saturday, 30th Jan.
Matilda's birthday.
Finished work.
Not feeling very happy.
Smsed boyf and told him I'm otw to bukit batok.
Then he say feel like going clementi.
So I said okay.
Meet at long john.
Then he sms and say someone tagging along and I can scold the person if I feel that I waited too long.
True to what I guess, Matilda tagged along.
Why? Choose her own birthday cake xD
Back to boyf's home at around 5+.
Superrrr tired!
But I couldn't fall asleep!
6+, his aunts and uncles start to come le.
Then I started to feel tired -.-
Blahblahblah.
Oooooh! Not forgetting that dinner was nice :D
Ate until super full.
And the cereal prawn is ♥ teehee
A bit spicy spicy one.

Played scrabble w his aunts and uncle.
Nearly lost! LOLS

Cut cake!
English.
Then Chinese.
Then Canto )));
Idk canto vers. Lols.

Photo taking :DDD
Was asked to join in taking boyf's family photo!
Hahahhahs!
If I were to tell candy, she surely say "aiya, you married over le ma.." ):
She dont want me liao. ):
LOLS xD

Friday, 29th Jan.
Hahs. Got to know that Dexter's leaving.
Someone said, "eh, you know your brother leaving not?"
LOL. For that instance I stunned and think who is my brother! xDDDDD

Confirmed this piece of news w team leader today.
And she said yeahh, Dexter's leaving on the 19th of feb.
Lmaosxz. There beter be no one who will say "aiyo, Dexter leave Carely also leave" -.-

Okay.
I'm tired.
Going sleeeep liao.

2010-01-25T21:56:00.002+08:00

Never ever say/scold someone else's boyf a 死胖子 when you yourself dont even look chio, neither do you look skinny, but almost somewhere near th size of the "死胖子" whom you called.

Bitch.

2010-01-16T00:44:00.002+08:00

Totally in th mood to whine now.
Wanted to find boyf, but I don't even know where he is and he's never replying my smses -.-
Forget it. Whine here better than whine to him and get scolded&nagged at again.

Totally sian diao.
Spent 65$ on clothes.
Then I realise this.
I got clothes, I got accessories like rings and necklaces and bracelets.
But I forgot that I need belts -.-
Wanted to borrow candy's, but she's using it.
Like damn sian diao lor. Got clothes and everything to spice up wardrobe, but when thinking of what to wear then realise that the old and currently-suffering-from-wear-and-tear belt is not even suitable to what I'm gonna wear.
Yes, I'm damn anal about this kind of thing.
I'm happy w what I wear.
But not when I realise there is something missing when I'm deciding what to wear for the next day: belt.
Okay, forget it.

I don't even feel better after typing everything here.
fml

2010-01-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

Matthew 21:21 (New International Version)

21 Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done.

Again, in

Mark 11:22 (New International Version)

22 "Have faith in God," Jesus answered.

This two verses was given to me by baby this morning.
Just now in shower, what mummy said kept on repeating in my mind.
There and then, I decided to take the plunge and claim God's promises.
His presence was so strong ytd that i cried while talking on th phone w baby..
All because of one song.

I've submitted my choices just now.
Leaving everything to God.
I don't think that me choosing pharmaceutical science is where and what I'm truly interested in.
But God says "this is it."
And I shall put it down.

Told baby that I'll put RP's one as 1st.
But when I was doing the online application, I put NYP's as 1st and RP's as 2nd.
I'm claiming God's promises. I believe, and trust that it is truly a path God wants me to take.

My results itself is a miracle.
In my entire life, I've never gotten a 4 for my maths.
And I did it this time.
Awesome, isn't it?
Of course, my God is an awesome God.
Can anyone say amen? :D

Anyw, to those who wants to know how's my results, here's it:
English C6
C. Humans C6
E. Maths B4
C. Science B3
Pure Biology D7

Yes, my bio is purely disappointing.
But God did not let me down.
Though this year I got 26 pts, but 08/09 results comes out to be 24 pts.
Amazing, isn't it? (:

Alright, got to go sleep now :D

2010-01-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

i realise that I've never taken more than 10 photos w boyf in a day. (did we? probably in 08 we did, in th flyer).
is it because i'm not a camera person or we don't like taking photos in the first place? :/

spent $65 on 8 items, that's what i wanna tell you.
but i dont have the mood to.

bye guys, and girls.
lao niang go sleep liao.

2010-01-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

Alright. Just an update of myself! :D

Have been working these few days, thats why no updates at all.
Besides, I'm either too tired or unable to use comp at all when I get home. Hahs.

Yesterday: Friday.
Went to church prayer meeting.
Ended work at 4pm!
Waited for dext for like, er, 2.5 hrs?
Found out that Sis V was at coffeebean, so find her first.
Hahs! Lo and behold! Sis V know dext lor!
I knew I be able to find someone who knows him!
But I didn't know that she only know dext's chinese name. Lols!

Today: Saturday.
Went baby's dad's shop cut hair first then off to church!
Byebye long hair.
Hello short hair ):

Bye all. Update next time. (:

2010-01-02T00:55:00.001+08:00

blogging via nds.

i suddenly rmb-ed that i got a dress i wanted t buy long ago at bhg. so i now have t wait till my pay comes out..

thinking of that..
soon it will be my turn t shop alone in th crowded streets, eating alone and also watch movie alone.

even when my hands are frozen, no one will be there t make it warm. no one will use one hand grab both of my wrists and use th other hand t tickle my chin.

there wont be any place where i can go and sleep at and have someone t wake me up for a scrumptious dinner.

everything that i thought in th past will no longer happen and if it happens, it'll be another girl. not me.

2010-01-01T20:44:00.003+08:00

Isn't this sweeeeeeeet?
Has never happened to me before though. -laughs-

Hopefully Dee won't see this. She don't know my blog link anyw? :/ lols

2010-01-01T16:15:00.000+08:00

I'm a selfish person.
I only want to be loved and not love.

2010-01-01T13:37:00.001+08:00

i feel like turning cold and
start ignoring people and
start giving cold replies.

thoughts.

2009-12-29T20:42:00.001+08:00

hmmmm. blogging via nds now..

Me & boyf has been tgt for 22 mths le.

He is one of th boring guys whom i know that are unromantic at all. but when he is romantic, he's really romantic. all those small stuffs that he do.. like holding my hands t jaywalk. always will stand beside me, wherever th direction of th cars is.

he is those you must tell him t do sth romantic stuffs thn he will do one. but th 1st xmas when i know him, he was romantic! (as well as our 1st valentine's day) =x

these few days i was super tired and was going t fall sick le, and ytd he went out until so late that i told him that i was going t sleep soon. but i told him i'll wait till 11pm, by then if he's back then we'll talk on phone. but he told me go sleep. (i was pretty upset about it =x)

this morn, i woke up with 1 unread message. opened it and read it. totally made my day lah! so happy. (((:

i think without him, i everyday will bad mood and cannot cool down =x

thankyoubaby!
and iloveyou (:

ohyes, my ankle kind of got a lil worse. even more pain than bef. cannot bend my ankle also, if not you'll see me scream ):

2009-12-27T19:13:00.002+08:00

I SPRAINED MY ANKLE THIS MORNING! ):
Now hurts like hell ):
First time getting such sprain, not those small small ones.
): Twist my ankle a bit can hurt and make me cry ):
I can't imagine if I have to let daddy massage it later ):
I might cry luh! )):

Family communion today.
Horhor! Boyf never go for family communion! =x
Neither did he went for wynn's birthday party too. lols
He no heart one.
I told him I this morning injure ankle, then he tell me he going back sleep liao ):

He super poor thing.
Got gastric pain from playing 10 hrs of WoW.
I heard what he say liao at my back got fire come out liao.
Thats why I objected of him playing WoW.
But he never listens ):

2009-12-25T21:56:00.003+08:00

Wendy yeema, baby Natalie, Auntie Margaret (boyf's mum) and Peace on th right.

Natalie super smart and cute lah!
Not even scared of strangers!
Billy yijong held her hand and then she raise both hands to let Billy yijong carry her.
Peace removed her pacifier, then gave her back before she left.
AND SHE PUT IT BACK IN HER MOUTH AGAIN!
OMG. So smart can! Hehs.

2009-12-25T03:41:00.002+08:00

BLESSED CHRISTMAS! :DDD

I thot on xmas eve got half day, end up dont have! T.T
Wanted t meet baby for lunch, but cause no half day, then didnt meet ):
Super upset.

Work was okay.

After work went tanah merah.
Found baby and took bus 45 to his popo's place..
Exactly a year ago, I went there for my 1st christmas party. Lols.
W carols de hor!

This year, is the 2nd year!
Marks our near-two-years anniversary.
And our 2 yrs anniversary is 2 months away! :D

Super bored at his popo's place.
Tired also ): but I didn't fall asleep! (:

Ate a lil.
G.I. Joe a bit.
Back to comp room.
Felt bored. Back to living room watch G.I Joe a bit.
Back to comp room.
Country story.
FF fail ):
I planted grass and wheat seeds lor!
Now that I'm home, my plot's empty! >=(
So have to plot again, water and redecorate the whole farm again -.-

Okay, continue..

Christmas carols.
Foooood!
Ate again.
Spilled chili sauce on myself ):
Half of my jeans kenna ):
So wash and blah blah blah.

Played games.
Exchange presents! :D
This year I got 5! :DDD
Last year I only got 1 (:

Home sweet home at 1.55AM.
Reached home at 2.30++
Thanks to baby's parents for sending me home. Else I'd be stuck there. Lols

2009-12-20T03:45:00.000+08:00

Woooooo!
Changed blogshop's layout and added mask spree!
Anyone wants to buy can buy from me!
Cheap cheap! :D

2009-12-19T14:06:00.002+08:00

Just 2 days of training and 1 night of chalet.
It nearly took my life! =x

Thursday
Woke up at 6.15am.
Left house at near 6.45am i think.
Took 804 cause raining, else I'd have walked there.
Reached the bus stop and I saw 969 left! OMG
Waited for another 969 to reach.
Around khatib area someone tapped me. I thot is accidentally one.
Turned my head around and I saw 4th auntie.

Reach SPC at around 8.20 going 8.30am.
Couldn't go up cause need obtain pass to go in SPC.
Then one of them super good, took me up leh!
Waited at their meeting room.
Instructor is call Rose.
Rose asked who ask me come so early.
I told her Thomas (the call centre manager).
She told me to go find Thomas for compensation xDDD
Ate KFC for lunch.
Totally no appetite though I'm hungry.
Went back to office around 12+ going 1pm.

Blah blah blah

After that go chalet.
Candy stil at dbg talking t her friends luh -.-
Called ah ben for directions when I reached Pasir Ris.
Lucky Eddie was there.
He told me what bus to take there.

Didn't want to go chalet one.
But Pasir Ris very near Paya Lebar!
So I stayed.
Wahlau. Everywhere also got beetles -.-
Worse than last year's.

Friday
The earliest to wake up.
It was raining and Jason they all couldn't be bothered to even bring everything back to the house -.-

It's also the start of me having running nose ):

Cab to office.
The cab driver super slow =x
9am then reached!
I 9am need to be at office lor!

Totally shag and couldn't concentrate.
Then Rose say she don't know how to teach when my eyes are closed and I'm sleeping.
God bless. Really is God bless de.
Though shag, I managed to learn everything! WOOOOOOO!
So happy! :DDDDDD

But then..
From morning until after work also haven eat.
Rose helped me get a pkt of biscuit. Thank you Rose! :D

Reached tampiness and bought Mac student meal.
Bused back to Yishun.

Homed.
Drank a bowl of soup.
Daddy asked me go withdraw money
But too tired le.
Since is mummy need de, I asked if I can withdraw them tmr =x
So yeaa, she allowed :DD

Went to sleep.
From 8.30pm to just now 12.30pm.
SIXTEEN hours leh! OMG. Lols

So just now went to withdraw money for daddy.
On the way there and on the way back, gastric pain ):
Those super pain de.
And it's those pain which is even worse than my normal gastric pain, PLUS, I rarely get such pain one (except normal one).
That one like can make you from sleepy to energize cause super pain. lols!

So now I'm home and doubt going out today.
Since boyf going watch movie w his friends @ iluma..
I doubt I'd be able to see him tday as well.

2009-12-16T21:58:00.002+08:00

I've actually been thinking of this ever since I got home earlier on.
Clique, is what we call.
But no, I realised that we're merely friends.
Nope, not a clique.

Yes, we went through hell lot of things.
But I realised that sometimes, it's the guys whom I know went through more things w me.
Is it me that my attitude is something that made all of you to turn away from you? or is it that because I'm better off w the guys and can click off w th guys better? Well, I don't know.

Nevertheless, I don't think we can ever go back to what we are when we're in secondary school.

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Not to forget that I saw what J told G about what S say when I wanted t meet them for dinner the last time I met them.

S say that she don't want to turn up just because I'm there. I told G that I wanna go home, but yeaa, was drag there instead.

4 years of knowing me liao. FYI, if you're unhappy w me, tell me.
Btw, I doubt you guys see my blog also.

Till then.
No more clique.
Just friends.

2009-12-14T14:32:00.003+08:00

Now my turn liao.
Told her to cheer up ytd.
Today my turn.

Super upset.
A couple of minutes more I can act like I waking up to go meet him for breakfast.
But no.
I effing fell asleep.
I stayed up to 6.05am just to have breakfast w him.
I fell asleep.
Do you know how upset I was?
22 months and I've never had breakfast w you before.

Sighs

blogging w nds! :D

2009-12-11T23:58:00.001+08:00

hello all (:
currently blogging w my nds :D
its so fun yet at th same time hard t use. hahahahahs
maan! this is th first time i'm using other devices t blog. lol xD
so fun luh!

boyf, i so happy now ;D
i managed t blog w nds! ^^

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today wentout w youru t bugis, then iluma then back t bugis junction.
bought th same wallet as her as well.
thanks youru! :D
and now we got th same wallet xD
she bought a locket necklace at th 'bridge' back t bugis junction. if i got money sure buy de luh. it's only 10$ !!

ate some stuffs then trained t yck t get my blazer that i bought. hee
8$ only. bargained w th seller. supposed t be 10$ de, asked if 7$ can not, but she say lowest is only 8$. :D

reached yck at like 5.20+ only. and we're meeting at 6 -.-”
sat at th platform de chair then played 'sally salon'.
had fun playing xD

okay. gtg now.
blog next time :>

2009-12-11T02:42:00.000+08:00

I wonder when I will have the money and go BKK with friends.

2009-12-09T23:35:00.003+08:00

I feel fucking irritating now.
All the jobs I've been searching either wants experienced if not dont want me.

With candy constantly keep on saying that I owe her a fucking $2k, and keep on saying that if i dont get a fucking job she'll die of working one day. FUCK!

Like I dont want find any jobs? Fucking irritating.
There are so many fucking things I wanna buy ever since I graduate.
But did I? No! I fuckingly did not buy anything okay!

Stil dare say that my wardrobe is full of clothes.
That's fucking funny! Clothes I buy from flea markets, or online or anywhere else, did it end up in my wardrobe?
That's a fucking NO okay!
My clothes, those that I bought are all taken away by candy if not I dont wanna wear them anymore cause I'm fucking fat and I can't wear them anymore!

Seriously pissed off.

Boyf is also another one.
Such a spendthrift.
I'm not even expecting you to buy anything from me okay. Not even flowers! The only time you bought flowers was during last year's valentine's day!
I told you to fold them! Are you?
I doubt so, SERIOUSLY DOUBT SO.
You can't stand me whining to you.
You can't tolerate a lot of things about me.
Then you might as well dont even fucking care about me okay.

Having arguments 2 to 3 days, no, almost everyday, you think I like ah?
You think I wanted it ah?
You stress about exams then I not stressed about life?
You think I'm not worried about not having a job?
Earning peanuts in five/ten years down the road?!

Today supposed to have a pleasant meal.
How did it end up to?
Utterly disappointed by what you said today.

Yes I know I'm fucking useless okay.
i can't fucking study and I can't go anywhere better than anyone out on the streets!
Even vietnamese brides are way better than me!
They can cook, wash clothes, mop the floor and do everything else but I DON'T!
I'M JUST NOTHING BUT A JUNK!

)(*&^%$%^&*()(*&^%$
FCUKING PISSED OFF!

2009-12-09T16:51:00.001+08:00

Not that I don't have goals.
Not that I dont want to change anything.

I just dont know where to start.

2009-12-08T23:20:00.001+08:00

Went out w cousins today!
Thanks to Youru, Wenyi and Xinhui, today is not bored at all! :DD
Talked about a lot of things.
So hard to make Youru do her work somemore! -faints-
Lucky Cherry easier to tell her do work. Lols

Today is 8th Dec. 22 months together liao.
Happy not?
Not as happy as being able to get your WOTLK right?
Hahahahas

I thought tmr really can eat Manhattan.
But well, no need eat liao. Lols!

Anyw, boyf, I didn't tell you this.
I decided on working for a year then go private school study.
I know how well I can fare for O's.
Needless for you to say at all.
It's either private, or ite alr.
So yeaa.

Sorry for not discussing w you.

2009-12-06T21:55:00.002+08:00

Church
Boyf
Chinatown w his family
Lunch-ed
Chinatown OG
Exchanged 2 man-made pearls
Home-d

Boyf bought:
Two 1k pcs jigsaw puzzle
One gundam model
And spent a lot of money.

He queued for nearly half an hour just for 2 ba chor mee and 1 mee pok tah!
But the soup, super nice! Got very very nice prawn taste <3

Cramps until jialat jialat ):

Gonna sleep soon.
Cramps coming back again ):

2009-12-05T04:49:00.004+08:00

-yawns-

It's now 4.49am in th morn! Lols
Boyf's so gonna scold me ):

Finished emailing and digging for emails for those who are in search of suppliers.
Changed my supply rates and selling rates as well.
Well, so gonna earn like, probably only a margin? ):
Nevertheless, I hope people will be interested and reply my email asking me questions!

Got this blogshop selling blings also.
Purposely went to email her advertising that iheartshop is supplying blings also.
And the owner replied! :DD

But well, the only bad thing is that, need certain amount of blings then can order.
Really hope can sell well!
Checked a lot of blogshops liao, especially those that got sell blings!
Mine's definitely cheaper than theirs!

Oh blogshop, generate more money please ~~
No people buy but got people get supplies from me also not bad!
At least I stil earn, though is only margin.
Eh wait. I think hard to get feedback leh -.-
AIYA! Nevermind lah! Got money generated jiu okay liao ^^

Anyw. Pinger online-d and rant to me that Starhub called her at 3.16am -.-
Can you imagine? It's 3.16 in the morn!
And Renny took over the phone and told the person that he is canceling all his subscriptions with Starhub. Starhub GG -.-

If I sleeping and this kind of thing happened, only TWO scenarios.
1. I sleep like dead log, won't even know they call me, or,
2. I pick up, scold them. Wake up afterwards call back scold them again.

Told Pinger that I'll dig out their bosses' email and spam them, and give them a call everyday. See they sian not. Then Pinger say she'll email to the press, even though how badly written the email is. But they're lucky that they never call Renny, especially during weekdays. Else really hong gan liao xDD

Alright. It's time for me to sleep now.

Oh wait.

Boyf said he got slight fever ):
So worried liao.

Kns. He say I'm over-reacting and assuming too much when I thought he failed his skill test ):
I did my best and never sms him until he sms/call me luh!
Effing worried and yet stil do this to me ):
Always do things that made me worried. Never know how to take care also. Still dare to say me! Still so bad to me! >=(

Boyf, you better don't scold me! Else I'll scold you back!
Always don't know how to take care of yourself and make me damn worried ):

Ooops. I got to go sleep now.
Only have the aircon for like, 54 mins only! (It's alr 5.04 now!)
BYEEEEE!

Choices, yay or nay?

2009-12-03T04:19:00.002+08:00

Recently I'm coming up with weird topics to blog about -.-
Unfortunately, since this is my blog, I can talk about ME!
1. How i met boyf
2. Quotes, right/wrong?
3. This post: Choices, yay or nay?
Except for the 2nd one!

Everyone living in this planet earth will face choices. From the start of your lifespan, you chose to use the brand of diapers and etc. But wait! How babies choose their own diapers?! That's easy. See if there's any skin reaction, like rashes and etc.

I was quite a dummy when I first got my psle results -> first major choice in my life, and I chose it myself!
get psle results -> choose school
There were several schools that I could enter express course.
Thanks to my laziness, I chose Northland.

Well, if I didn't choose Northland, I doubt I will be able to know my clique -- guiyan, jeslin, sheena, meilin, graceneo and etc.
Of course, poor guiyan endured her whole secondary school life with me (and my bad temper, hahs!)

Truth be told, I was quite reluctant to choose normal course, cause my two elder sisters are from normal course.
Thinking that I be able to make it, I chose express stream. Life is not very good. 1st year is always th best! Provided that you have awesome classmates.

Being lazy, unable to concentrate well in school, sleep in school.
All these contributes to where I am right now.

I can remember vividly on the day of taking my results in 18 Jan 09.
I got my results.
Clique too.
Some of them started crying, cause fail english (need retake again).
I got so fed up that I said "even if cry, I should be the one crying!"
I left. Angry and despaired (I'm feeling worse than anyone of them).
That moment, I really feel like scolding all of them. No lah, I only said that. -points to the sentence earlier-
But at that point of time, I realised that they are competing against each other. I'm not even their competitor.
Can't even put themselves in my shoes -.- (it's what i thot at that point of time)

I went over to th side of the hall, called boyf.
Told him, then I cried ): (sad case)

(skipped some unimportant parts)

Went back home.
Cried.

Weeks later, I'm back in school again.

Thinking back, I wonder if I made a wrong choice.
In fact, I think I'd probably be happier now if I'm in ite.
Ite, study hard for 1 year, next yr can go poly year 1. Now? Idk if I can go in poly not. If cannot have to go ite then poly. Waste of a year.

But well, looking for jobs now and I really hope that God bless and let me have that job.
It's a covenant between me and God, that I'll give half of my pay (of the 1st month) to God as an offering.

2009-11-28T17:27:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went partyworld w candy, youru, xinhui, and xinhui's eldest sis (and her husband), eldest uncle and xh's mum and another aunt from msia.
Me, youru and xinhui went there first. Waited for candy cause we dont have vip card. Lols.

Got there and sang a few songs. After everyone arrived, the 3 of us went out camwhore xD Can't be bothered to go back and sing again. Lols.

Went one corner and tried t take jumpshots. Failed terribly! ):

Total cost: $178.xx :/
So ex lah!

Boyf in th aftn got his dad's birthday party.
At night got his clique's birthday party.

Super gay lor. If I knew he be wearing th hairband.. I'd have stopped him!
See!

Thanks to SiShi, I saw this photo:
Sj, piglet, boyf.

wahlau eh -.-

kays. will continue blogging next time (:

Olivia - Sometime when we touch

2009-11-27T01:23:00.004+08:00

Sometimes when we touch by Olivia

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
I'm only just beginning
To see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through all the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
Im just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly
At times I understand you
And I know how hard you try
I watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by
At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold ya till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Quotes, right/wrong?

2009-11-26T17:43:00.002+08:00

Throughout the years in your entire life, there must be hell lot of people who said this "I rather be hated for who I am and not loved for who I am not". How true is that?

People always say this sentence. I do, too.
But is this quote really acceptable in this society?

In reality, when you get haters, you say this quote, probably also thinking that people will love you for who you really are. Those people hate you, because of your guts, for who you really are. But is it really true?

Seriously, now that I'm alr 17, I think I'm getting out of this phase and also this phrase. Out there in the society, people like or even love you for who you are not, and hate you for who you really are. Don't get what I mean?

Well. Let me give you an example.
Leena is a feminine woman. Since the days in secondary school, boys go head over heels for her and tries to woo her. This, is something which made girls hate her. To be honest, even her closest friend whom she called as a sister, hated her as well. Whenever the girls try to tell the boys something bad about her, the boys would brush them off with sarcasm like "you're just jealous of her, now leave me alone".

The girls knew how Leena was like. Being feminine and all that, the girls knew it was just an act. But the boys were so obsessed with her that they were all kept in the dark.

Gradually, Leena knew that every girl she knew hates her. And she told herself "I rather be hated for who I am and not loved for who I am not". But the fact is that, she is being loved by who she is not, by the boys.

Leena graduated from secondary school with average scores, and those who were consoling her, were the boys only.

Eventually, "I rather be hated for who I am and not loved for who I am not" became her belief.

And she is out there in the society, working, clinging on to this belief.

She started off being feminine as well, so that she will be able to make friends with people in the company. But as time goes by, her haters increase. She new-found best friend, betrayed her. Her boyfriend, who was also working in the company, broke off with her. She ended up quitting the job in search for a new one.

She felt lost and she mumbled to herself "I've lost".

Facing with break ups and being jobless, she sunk into depression. And it was only this particular day that she finally woke up to her senses...

While she's acting to be feminine, people like her because she's feminine. But they never liked her, even once, when she's in her true self - arrogant, complacent and irresponsible. No one liked her for who is she, but only for who she is not.

Well, this story tells that this quote, is wrong, but at the same time, it's correct as well. So contradicting -.-

2009-11-24T02:22:00.001+08:00

Super bored.

Came to blog to waste time.
As well as to whine.
But then, i sian liao.
No one visits my blog anyw.

2009-11-22T02:13:00.002+08:00

Having a bad headache now.
And boyf's playing his mw2.
Forget it.
Dont distturb him liao.

I go pop panadol then go sleep now.

2009-11-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

Watching show on teevee now.
So boreddd.
Can't wait for interview tmr.

I feel like eating..
Dim sum and etc etc :p

Sighs.
So bored.
Open so many sprees also no business =x

Yawns.

2009-11-17T03:00:00.000+08:00

Okay. I'm real bored alright?
So sian! Even talking t boyf also sian-sian tone. ):
I'm really very bored ):

Gosh. I need a job badly!

how I met boyf & became his girl xD

2009-11-14T03:18:00.004+08:00

Got inspired by Shu En to do this. Lols.
She put at her sidebar there, bigbig one: how she met her boyf.

So I thot it would be interesting. Lols.
I'm not plagiarising okay (:
Just thot that it would be interesting, hehs.

I entered vRz (a forum) since 2007.
Mainly is because I wanna keep changing phone, then end up keep on poisoning myself with new phones. That's why now whenever friends wanna buy phone will ask me if good or not. Throughout the whole time, I'm only in the garage sales (handphones/gadgets).

It was around mid june or even later when I joined chit-chatting.
Everyone there was good, unlike now. Hehs.
There is a trend of having a daily thread, where one day got one chat for people to go in to chat with other forum people.

It was around October I think, when I met boyf (nickname midniteguy) and I call him mng. (MNG = MANGO, a apparel brand)
He often say that MANGO is he open one. But all our us (forum members) know he joking one only.

One day, I was in quite a bad mood.
Then boyf was currently taking O's also.
That day I don't know what paper he got, but the next day he got chem paper =.= (and his chem is lousy one).
In the midst of my bad mood, I "screamed" at him and say "why you cannot go study one uhs? Tmr got paper still dare play dota." Then whenever we chat confirm will have a lot of icons. Even people in the forum also thinking if we're together.

I dont know why also.
Then I ask him for msn. Cause I that day bad mood ma! So must say sorry =x
Added him on msn. And I found out that he also same church as me one, but he backslided.
Thinking that it's God's will (it IS God's will), I try to bring him back to church.

The first time we met on at the bus stop near church.
I saw him, the eye contact was there.
But he doesn't seem to like know me like that =.= (okay, he don't know me lah).
That time was drizzling and I was sharing an umbrella with my guy friend (cause he have).

After that I told boyf to come to church, I be waiting for him at this particular place.
So yupps, that's how we met.

It was, i don't know, weeks later (?) that he asked me out.
We went shopping! :D
I spent hell lot of his money okay =x

(Okay, I'm skipping unimportant stuffs, why my story so long one =.=)

So yeaa, we frequently sms each other.
Even got one time I went out with zhang yuan, larhvin and jia wei, i also smsed him! (though he's working)
Being with those kids really very boring lor.
So that day when I was out with them, I went to ask him why he so free and I kept on apologising that I didn't mean to disturb him one, just that I'm really very bored. Then he say nvrm, he also smsing other girls =.= I jitao a bit sian diao liao =x

Even Candy also say that I confirm will be with him one, though I kept on saying "no luh! he don't like me one lah!" Cause she say she sense that he like me :/ and emphasizing that what she say will come true. Lols. But I just brushed it off =x

It was near CNY then he confessed to me. Kept on asking people what I should do. Lols.
Ignored him for quite some time. But don't know why I don't feel good if I don't reply people .______.
So I told him I'll consider.

(Skip skip skip again!)

It was during the 2nd day of CNY then I agree to be his girl. But don't know is which day =x Cause he never pop the old cliché "Will you be my girlfriend?" question, so I also never say anything. So we chose one that day, 2nd day of CNY, 8 feb 08 as our anniversary.

Tadaaa! We together le ^^v

We've been together for 645 days le.
85 more days to 2 years (:

2009-11-10T16:22:00.003+08:00

You don't know what I want this time round.
You end sch at 6, reach yishun at around 7. Max tim we can spend tgt? 2 hours.
By th time you reach home, if you take train, 1 hr. If you take bus, 1.5 to 2 hrs.
So by th time you reach home is alr 10 or 11pm.

Got meet at least better than nothing.
Yeaa, this is true.
No matter what you feel that you are accompanying me.
I study until 6 plus, find you and your clique, dinner w them.
This is accompanying me.

You end sch late, dinner w me.
This is accompanying me = date.

Have you thot of how I'd feel?

Have you thot of how many months have we not watched a movie tgt?
Almost everytime we get tgt for dinner or whatsoever, a lot of times is to talk things out, no?

I don't wanna talk things out for dinner.
Just a date.
Movies + dinner/lunch.
As simple as it is.
I'll pay my own share (:

2009-11-10T04:19:00.000+08:00

Super tired!
Off to sleep now!
Hopefully can sleep!

God bless that I can have that admin job Dennis recommend!
That's 10$/hour!
God bless me!

TATA!

2009-11-09T01:32:00.002+08:00

Wahlau eh.
Fuck maan!
Always like that de.
Ask me do things, can't even help me after that. Zzzzzzzz!

Wanted to talk t boyf one.
End up super no mood.
Quickly kup th phone though I really want t talk t him.
I don't want flare up at him.
Besides, I told him that, he'll be th last person whom I'll whine to.

2009-11-07T04:32:00.002+08:00

Hellooo. I'm back from th toilet.
Goddd. My heart is beating so fast ):

Few nights ago, okay, this whole week, my night became my day, my day became my night.
I spent hours and hours studying in starbucks, drinking their coffee, buying bun back and eat and etc.
Finally, just now something happened.

I vomit. Finally.
I put up with th feeling for so long le. Finally vomit it out.
But then, I got a feeling it's not th end yet.
I still feel like continuing to vomit, but i feeeeel so weak now.
Wearing ignyte hoodie but it didn't help.
I feeeel so cold now.

Exams gonna be over soon.
I'm always either sick th few days bef exams or sick aft th exams. Sometimes, both.

The nauseating feeeling is back.
What I threw up can barely allow me to take any medicine.
I didn't take dinner at all.
My lunch-dinner was korean instant ramen and i drank a lot of the tea mummy made + the fried popcorn chicken she fried.

So I vomit can only be these few possible causes:
1. Never eat regularly
2. I screwed up my body clock
3. Drank too much coffee :/

But anyw, I deserve it lah =.=
I hardly take good care of my body this year. So if I were to fall sick, I think is very common ba. Hehs

I'm getting weaker by th second.
And whenever I lie down jiu got that want-to-vomit sensation. ):

救命啊！

Wth. 4.43am liao =.=
I went to vomit at like, 4.05am, came back at around 4.30+++ =.=
Then now so fast jiu 4.44am liao =.=
Zzz.

2009-11-05T18:44:00.001+08:00

Bad headache now T.T
Feels nauseous also :/

Tmr bio paper 2 le ):
Haven started studying yet.
After that left 2 more papers, on the 11th and the 12th.
Finally, holidays :D

CHOP CHOP!
Have to cut away my hair ends liao.
Wayyy too much split ends ):

Anyw, gtg now.
Update ltr. :D

2009-11-01T01:04:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeeee!
Study for 1.5 weeks more for 4 months holidays! -runs off to study!-
That's what Alvin said when I whined to him telling him that I don't wanna study. LOL.
Wahh, this sentence really made me quiet down and study. Hahahahahs!
What a motivation!

Went central to study tday.
Met another new fren -- Gerald / Jerald. Aiya, idk how to spell his name at all.
Just that th pronunciation is th same. Lols!
Kept on hitting Alvin cause he made me laugh =.=
Kept on copying what I do and laugh about it luh! -.-"
After Jerald left, study.
Asked Alvin helped me buy Kopi-peng.
Wahlau, sour sour one =.=
Thou coffee always got a bit sour taste, but the sour taste in th coffee i drank was quite strong =.=

Smsed boyf, told him that I finished studying liao.
Went off to dhouby ghaut to meet him and his clique.
Wangan wangan wangan. They played for 3 to 4 freaking hours! Gosh!
Imagine sitting there 3 to 4 hours! Butt also pain luh! Lols
Disturbed him with that devil wand Violet gave him.
Blah blah blah.

Finally dinner!
Was having tinges of pain liao. Gastric pain, duh!
Dinner ate chicken rice with .... idk :/ can't remember ):
Then off to eat beancurd. Lucky I nvr eat.
The syrup for th beancurd's too sweet. But well, I also rarely eat.

Next stop: Bugis TKA.
The block building machine is there! Lols!
Then I realise got 9 jubeat machines there.
Yeaa, NINE jubeat machine.
I think fernando will go crazy over it, if he's still interested in jubeat. Hehs
And, THE MANAGEMENT MOVED THE NEOPRINTS MACHINE LUH!
Wahlau! I couldn't find the wangan machines =.=
T.T no more hiding in neoprints machine ):
They change place then so easy for boyf to find me liao ):
That's not fun! ):

Finally,
HOME SWEET HOME! :DDD

[edit]
Guiyan says is 6 months! YAYYYYYYYYS!
[/edit]

2009-10-22T11:56:00.002+08:00

Today..

SCIENCE PRACTICAL!

My stomach was churning and butterflies are flying in my stomach!
OMG. This is the first time I'm feeling so nervous, and it's only practical! Gosh!

Wed de attendance for eb is only 8! wow.
Heard from doreen that all express classes wed's attendance is all single digit. lols

Anyw, COOKING MAMA 3 IS OUT!
Boyf, after O's. After O's you MUST pass me nds hor, i dont care. I want play!

Here's the trailer:

Thanks to Pinger who told me Cooking Mama 3 is out. :D
So gonna play after O's.
Boyf, if you don't let me play after O's hor, I'm gonna throw away and delete your WoW! :P

2009-10-10T02:25:00.003+08:00

Sighs
Sighs
SIGHS

By right, if I could go out, I'd alr be with boyf fishing for prawns.
But mummy say that I'm a girl and it's hard for her to do things if daddy ask for me.
Plus my exams coming. zZz. wtfz?

Want go out cannot go out.
Like jail like that T.T

2009-09-27T00:29:00.002+08:00

我不需要一个贪钱的姐姐。错。她不是我姐。
无论大小事物都是我的错。关我的事就是男朋友的错。
天啊！这蛮不讲理的人到底为什么会是我的姐姐？

今天已经够烦了。
看到她在我房间里，我更烦！
然后她又说 “if you got any problem with your boyfriend, please call him and argue it out with him".
真的是wtf. 我有讲到他吗？为什么要把他拉进话题里？
难道我真的不可以因为学业或church的事而感到烦吗？
为什么我心情不好就是因为boyfriend leh?
Like as if 我有在她伤心欲觉的时候落井下石。

Best part?
她说”这样不爽的话就搬出去住lah"
KNN. 我父母没叫我搬出家门，她凭什么把我赶出去？
就因为我每个月没给家用？太搞笑了。我还在读书。O level 一个月后就开始你叫我去做工？
tsk tsk. 这种臭婆娘还有啊？

我到不如不读书，现在立刻马上找工作去？
不用读书啦。钱比较重要吗。一辈子做杂工不用紧的吗。因为又不是你的前途。
KNNBCCB.到不如说我从头到尾都不应该读书？我呸！

若读不懂，自己叫人帮你翻译。
(If you don't understand, ask someone to translate it for you.)

2009-09-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

I think I'm almost blogging everytime when there's something bad happened ):
Tmr getting back results alr. But we all actually know how's our results le.
I'm really speechless upon seeing my results.
I even cried in class over it! Damn ):

21.5/50 for geog
25/50 for ss
Humans: FAIL! D7.
C. Science: Pass. C5.
English: Pass. C5.
Maths: Pass. C6.
Bio: FAILLLLLLLL! F9.

L1R4 aka L1R2B2: 32 pts. FML.

Kns. So lousy lah! ):
Last year prelims, O's and this year's mid years I got 30 pts. But I failed 2 I think.
This time round, fail two subjs, 32 pts. PIANGS.
Utterly disappointed.

I stil can't believe I cried. Lol.
Mrs Lee was staring at me while teaching. I stared back at her with my teary eyes, as if telling her I'm fine. LOL.
But really, I'm really very upset by it.

WHY DIDNT I IMPROVE? ):
Every subjs is retaining it's status.
My future is wavering. Sighs

Told Priscilla that I can't go ite even if I can go in if my results ain't good this year.
Almost everyone don't believe what I say.
Plus what boyf says what will happen if I don't do well.
I hate myself, seriously.

fml.

2009-09-13T03:33:00.001+08:00

Sighs. Now moodless to sleep. Ltr on stil got church ~.~
I alr say sorry liao. Never even reply me. Log out msn also nvr say.
I'm just only being sarcastic and not mean ):

Sighs.
Sian-ed diao and played fish a fish in fb.
Level 28 liao. All thanks to being able to clean tanks and no deduction in stamina when going to other places.
Else GG.

I'm craving for pasta.
But I really no mood.
I'm tired, but no mood to sleep. -bangs wall-

Didn't managed to send out the parcels.
PO close at 1pm and I thot is 1.30pm ._________."
Only can send them out on monday then.
3.39am now. Boredddddd.
Yet moodless.

Oh truck.

Anyway, I know my prelim results for maths liao.
Damn upset with it. Feel so "truck-ed"!
Why did my results remain it's status quo? I hate it, seriously.
It has remain as what it is for mid-year too.
I dread my results.
No, I don't wanna see them soon. Sighs ):

2009-09-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

310809.
Teacher's Day celebrations! :D
Had Phys paper on the day itself too.
Quite hard, but I guess can pass ba.
Kept on telling people that this is my first time being so studious, lols. And it's true okay! (x
My first time being so anxious over prelims, oh yes, it's only prelims!

Clique came back to school! Yays!
At least that asshole let ex-students come back! For once in this year!
So happy lah. LOL.
Waited for Mrs. Ho with them. Apparently they wanna take photos, hehs.
Took photos with them and blah blah blah.
Before leaving, Mrs. Ho say she wanna talk to me after prelims.
Scare the hell out of me. Now I have no idea what she wanna talk about and curiousity seems to be getting ahead of me. HAHS.

Guiyan went back to SP for her exam. (or was it a test?)
Peiqi went home cause of her cousins. So left only Jeslin, Sheena, Wang yi and me.
Went home to change out of my uniform first. Changed and meet the girls at the bus stop.
Bus-ed to northpoint. Ate pastamania. Killer. I spent a lot that day T.T
After that, Mr. M was near ending work alr. We girls were still debating where to go next.
So yeaa, I made my stand. I was going dbg to meet Mr. M.
"Made" them tag along. But at dbg all pang seh me!
Say don't want be ight bulbs, ltr too bright =.=
If like that hor, I think if I go with Mr. M to his clique gathering, all of them can make up a sun liao. LOL

010909.
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY to all teachers (:
No school! No school! No school! No school! No school!
Poor Mr. M, he had to go work ):
Slacked around the whole day. Yes, I slacked.
Left Chemistry to study the next day.
Facebook-ed the whole day.
Boring.
Went out with Candy.
Shared a subway meal with her.
Now I'm feeling hungry ._______."

020909.
Facebook-ed the whole day too.
Hokay, I never study. Except to make notes.
Now I start to panic over it.
I never study for Chemistry!
GOSH, IT'S CHEMISTRY OKAY!
Ltr Mr. Neo kill me! I'm supposed to do even better than last year!
Oh maan, I can feel the pressure going up ):
My poor Mr. M had to work at 7AM the next day ):
And he ended work on 9PM today!
Hope he gets enough rest!

030909.
Doomsday ):
Exam starting in 5 hours and 40 mins time. Now is 2AM.
Worried. ):
How siol. I only made notes leh!
I don't know if I can pass this not ):
So stress siol );
Nvrm, friday approaching soon!
Friday will be the end of my sufferings!
Only left with Science paper one and bio paper one. ALL MCQs! :D
): But still need study.

Hokay, I need to go rest now. Tired. Ltr need energy for that "battle"!
Chionggggg ah ~~~

2009-08-30T16:42:00.000+08:00

Gosh. Just now at causeway point i saw what i wanted! omgomg.
Basic set is 29.90$ without anything.
Then i also saw one headphones from philips which i wanted too! 17$.
Need save a total of $47! 0.0

Now I wish I have more pocket money! LOL.

2009-08-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

Movie: HANGOVER (NC16)
Rating: 3 out of 5 stars

No big deal of a NC16 show. But there's some nudity lah. Overall, the show is super funny. But it's a lil draggy, nevertheless, funny.

Watched the show with Candy and someone-in-my-family. She told us not to buy any snacks, but we did in th end. Unfortunately, it didn't occur to candy and me that she's injured and "cannot eat or drink" =.= So after we bought th snacks, we got like, 3 cups of coke. 2 large and 1 regular. Sadly, we have to give a cup of coke away else it would be wasted. The moment we enter the cinema, that person's face turned black, immediately. Unable to take jokes, on hearing the first F word, her face turned black. Okay, it's a NC16 show, you should have expect sth like this to happen.

After that, until we reached home, her face was black, totally! Back home, she told mummy that we're so stupid that we gave away a cup of drink, and that she's never gna go out with us again. Seriously, I don't even give a damn if she's gna go out with me and candy, ever again.

In her mind, she definitely feels that Candy buy snacks is because I asked her to buy (as you all know that she usually gives me what I want, spoilt by candy) cause mainly I never eat my dinner. But it has never ever occurred to her that Candy actually also wants to eat it. It's just like it never occurred to us that she cannot eat or drink =.= Oh wait, I never eat my dinner cause I don't feel hungry. I never expect to go watch movie also what. What's with that reaction? Even if we're not going to watch movie, am I gna take my dinner? No, I'm not.

Anyway, guiyan, if you're reading this post, rmb to go for O lvl english okay! Time to pack up your room and don't lose your entry proof! (:

2009-08-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

Here to rant.

1) Stone-age computer is moving at the fast speed of 1kb/s.
2) I can't use that bloody lappy.
3) I hate that fact that my parents side with that bitch
4) I wish I had that courage to slap her back back then. Then Cherry won't suffer when she's young.
5) Thanks the bitch for a childhood nightmare. I'll never forget that, or rather, I can't forget that.
6) I realised that my SS might fail.
7) I have been changing my display name in msn that I got so sick of it that I came in blogger to rant.
8) Bloody hell! Why everyone sides her? So what she's the eldest?
9) I wish korkor is stil alive. I hate that fact that he'd dead before I can even see him.
10) Life's unfair. You can't do anything but LLST.

End of rant. PERIOD.

2009-08-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time ever since I last blogged. Hahahs
Prelims started today. English P1 and social studies papers tday. Screw that english paper. I don't know what I was writing! Then for ss, quite bad. But can pass I guess. I went to do globalisation for essay! Then idk how t do the 2nd part ): 13 marks lehhhhhhh! I went on and read about venice one. Then I know how to do =.= kns. First time I did my best to do source base qns cause usually very bad with it. But I only managed to do 1a and 1b and a lil bit of 1d. Never do 1c, cause idk how t do. Hopefully will pass.

Tday after exams, that vp asks us to go back class, say got sth to tell us I think. She never turned up. Everybody left in the end. She made us waited for half an hour. So everyone sian-ed diao and left. Every class was leaving, except EC. They waited while all of us leave. lols

Yesterday was Science practical for prelims. Did very badly to the extend of either
1) single digit or
2) fail.

Either option also fail. HAHA. Chem I only did like one part? Cause no time and I screwed up at physics. For the first time, doing pendulum makes me nervous ): Oh yeaa, I caused a hole in the towel that was used to wipe the tables to dry. lols =x

Last wednesday was my doomsday as well. I was super confident for english oral. But when I see the examiners, suddenly I can't really speak up. Sighs. Of all things, this have to happen. Utter disappointment.

But well, it's alr over and I can't do anything about it le. Just hope that I can do well for english. It's my weakest subj now, other than maths. Tmr maths paper, and I haven't learn finish similar triangles and complicated vectors. SIGHS.

I just wanna do well ):
STOP PROCRASTINATING, CARELY!

2009-07-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

just now my mum was watching show, damn noisy. then i tell her dont be so noisy. then that bitch say "then you go inside room" so i told her to shut up, and she say this to my mum "what's wrong with your daughter ah?"

oh well.

2009-07-25T01:50:00.001+08:00

Just because I'm not the first to wish you happy birthday

2009-07-20T22:22:00.002+08:00

Its been almost 8 mths ever since sch started for me and 4 months ever since poly started.
Everyone is, I believe, busy with work.
Changes are inevitable, but I guess bonds are too fragile, like er, convalent bonding. Low m.p and low b.p. Bonds easily broken.
I can sense changes and bonds breaking, I'm not dumb nor am I stupid.

Friends of 5 years, including this year.
Clique of seven.
Now it feels like only left a few others and me.
We rarely talk.
But I made the effort to talk to everyone.

I dont understand why everyone around me is turning into a hypocrite.
Not pin-pointing to anyone in our clique.
Just wishing that we will stay close tgt.

2009-07-11T19:15:00.005+08:00

Yesterday went out t eat with fellow forum-ners.
Cause one of them wanted a outing so much. HAHA
So organized one and yeaa, outing must be wayyy before studying ma (;

Yupps, went eat steamboat. Yay for their free flow of can drinks. ^^

Here's 22 cans of can drinks.
This is taken after we finish 12 cans of can drinks and i went to take.
We left some can drinks there also. HAHA.
Unopened of course. We left like.. 11 cans?
So we actually drank like 23 cans. Like wow.

Tsktsk. Can't believe that someone eat so much until he lazy use hands to drink and uses his chopsticks to kiap his straw and drink =.=

Wait wait wait. Before I show any the another photo, I shall let you see his avatar in forum (;

And here he is, being lazy:

My apologies for th poor photos. I wonder why also :/
It looks so much more clearer on my phone luh!

Okay nvrm.
Then went arcade. All in the mood to waste their spare cash. -shakes head-

Next up: HTC Magic blogging contest by Nuffnang

2009-06-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday

ROARS. THE SECURITY GUARDS CALL ME POPCORN GURL! ):
Even made me bracket (popcorn girl) when I take th keys ):
So much for giving freeeeeee popcorns ):

I took a lot of lollys xD
Boyf took even more, 40+ one day and 73 another day.
Now I miss working. HAHA
Sleeping inside th store after doing homework = SHIOK!
Air con is at 10 deg xD
Damn shiok luh!

------

School starting tday.
Almost couldn't wake up =x
Too tired.

One photo which boyf let me see, which i think is cute.

Uncle wearing Nemo hat xD

2009-06-26T11:21:00.004+08:00

My parents will never understand me
Six hours of sleep on wed night
Four hours of sleep on thurs night
Oh great

2009-06-23T01:39:00.003+08:00

YOOOOOOO! Have not been blogging lately. Hahas
Here are some photos. Random assortment.

During maths extra lessons in 1st 2 weeks of June, I did this. Cause that guy was teaching amaths.

Grace saw and asked me to help her draw TVXQ.
So here are th results:

Went laohor's workplace one day cause of boyf's psp. Got hamsters leh!

Above are th babies.

The aggressive one:

Worked at Paragon at a candy floss stand. Teeheee
My candy floss machine:

Alright. Will update next time round when I've got time. TATA

2009-06-10T13:10:00.007+08:00

NEW ARRIVALS:

Hyun Joong:

Kyu Jung:

Jung Min:

Hyung Joon:


Young Saeng:


Young Saeng's 2nd icon and 3rd icon is almost th same. 2nd one is more of red and th 3rd one is more of orange and it's tilted.

Hyun Joong, Kyu Jung and Jung Min only got one new icon. Lazy to do a few more xD

Edited: Hyun Joong got one more icon! :D

Koo Hye Sun (unedited version) :


Last one isn't that nice. The image quality was like that when I first saw it.
I like the 1st and th 3rd! ^^

2009-06-07T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hehe, tday super happy ^^
Went shopping with boyf.
Bought so many stuffs! :D:D
Retail therapy always rock (:

Bought two pairs of sandals for $10.
Two bras for $10 also.
Four bracelets for $3.80.
Four tops for $9. (Buy 3 get 1 free -- all must be same price)
Four tops are: 3 drappy cardigans, 1 white long oversized cardigan.

Super happy with my buys now :D
I so wanna go shopping again with boyf!

2009-06-04T19:30:00.004+08:00

2009-06-01T21:10:00.003+08:00

Perhaps I really didn't try at all, or I did, but of no use.

It's probably the start of the downfall of this relationship.
People say "女人是祸害", but for me is "脾气是祸害".
Even kor also say that my temper got bad to worse.

Sometimes I feel that, what if I'm th type where I keep everything to myself?
Be it happiness, troubles, problems or anything else.
Would everyone beside me be happier?
Would I be less annoying? Hahahas.

But I'm annoying right from th start.
Just like BOF, Goo Jun Pyo is not actually not allowed to have friends cause of his mum and he's the successor of SHINHWA, but in my case, it's my temper that probably disallow me to have any friends.

Change.
How easy would it be?
How difficult would it be?
Be it my negativity or my temper, would it be easy to change something that is inculcated in your life since young?
No one taught me to control my temper since young. But everyone "taught" me to be negative.

If life's really a fairytale like BOF..

2009-05-27T23:03:00.002+08:00

Thank you everyone for your concern :D
I'm fine after finishing my antibiotics alr. (;

June holidays is coming for everyone, but not me T.T
2 weeks of my holidays went into drain last year, this year also the same! ):

Got back my results for MYE.
Horrendous ):
L1R4 30 pts. ))):
No diffference from O lvls.
Damn sad lah.
And yet yy still complained that her results are sucky.
At least better than me, she's got 25 pts for L1R4.

This holidays, must must must study!
It's a must! Must buck up! MUST STUDYYYYYY!
Cannot be lazy le. I cannot allow what happened last year to happen again this year!

Ended school at 12 30 today, but no one said we could go off alr!
But well, all th while I was sleeping, so I wasn't bothered by it.
But because no one said we could go, everyone stayed back for an extra hour ._______.
Then Kaiying was supposed to go for her SPA briefing but everyone of us pangseh-ed her. Heard from some of them that she was near crying alr. Sorry kaiying! Y'know, I really really had to go home cause of my ehem, not cause I don't wanna wait. ):

My spree-ers are all complaining that the items haven't arrived and they have wait for a very long time.
Not that I don't want to give them their items, but my supplier also haven't got th items! And what's worse, th items are being held up at th customs cause th officers want to check th items for any illegal stuffs.
Wahhhhh! If really got any drugs or whatsoever, I die liao. ):
I might be accused for being a accomplice in it! T.T

Oh shitz. I just remembered that I forgot to do my "oh-so-beloved" situational writing. Oh dang it!
Tmr lessons resuming after recess. Like, finally sth t do! I'm bored doing nothing in school. Oh wait, not really nothing. I could listen to my mp3 and sleeeeeeep! :D
Hey, I'm not there to sleep. =x

Finally finished reading th book I've started reading on Monday. Took me 3 days, and I didn't borrow it out of library (:
So proud of my pace at reading that thick book. ((x
But I was and I am very disturbed by th book.
It's not only about child sexual abuse, it's about a young girl with schizophrenia, in short, a schizophrenic. Almost near to satanism and occultism. It's unbelievable that it was a real story.
Okay, I'm just disturbed by it lah.
Kids under 16, don't read it please. =x

Name of storybook: Ghost girl
Author: Torey Hayden

Torey was a teacher in this school specially for the disabled, mentally. This eight year old girl, Jade (whom everyone called Jadie), caught her attention and things start to be complicated after that. Jadie had selective mutism; she talks at home but not in school. Torey was th first who was able to make her talk. Slowly, Jadie started saying weird stuffs which stirred Torey's emotions and kept on saying "X marks the spot" and pointing to a symbol where there's a cross ('X') being encircled, which a guy in th book says that it's a symbol of sexual abuse; the circle represents the vagina and the cross represents the penis.

Overall, it's a book which made me sleepy but yet half-intrigued by it. Not to mention, disturbed.

Sick.

2009-05-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

Down with fever ever since Sunday night. Mild fever, then no more. Then mild again.
My temperature fluctuates. I feel well this moment, but unwell the next.
But well, I'm gonna have another day of "holiday" on Thurs -- Marking Day.

Today Chem paper.
I really thank God for it.
I didn't managed t study due to me falling sick.
Couldn't remember QA and a lot of things.
But it's by God's grace that QA and th things I never study came out.
Well well, hopefully can pass. =x

Met yy this morning t go school tgt.
Oh my gosh! She's totally absurd!
She kept on saying "Ah ya! You never study also will pass one! We this kind of people must study. You dont need to study one."

Like, "WTH LAH YOU THIS BITCH!"
I really wanted to slap her.
If I don't need to study t pass, why th heck am I effing back in school, AGAIN?!
I wanna slap her and scold her a numb skull =x
头脑简单，四肢发达. Eh no. Is 说话不进过大脑. Irritating shitz.

2009-05-16T19:12:00.002+08:00

I always hated it when boyf goes for his dumb wmmt training or whatsoever.

If you call that "accompanying" me and "giving me your time", perhaps it's really wrong.

What 'bout an example, everyone?

Your boyf, though cut down on gaming, occasionally goes arcade. Okay, not occasionally, wherever there's an arcade, he'd go.

And he meant that day to spend time together.

How is it fair to you, then?

My dear boyf, I'm not saying that you promised me that today you'll spend time with me, but it really gets on my nerves not getting any replies back.

Perhaps I could say I'm tired of waiting for you t reply my smses.

You said you'll find time t reply me asap. But do you really do that? ):

Take this afternoon for an example.

You'll probably say I didn't reply your smses instead.

Maybe I should say I can't be bothered t "disturb" you and reply your smses.

Just an hour ago, I told you I'm hungry.

Your reply came in at 6.02 and I replied you at 6.03.

Your next reply came in at 6.27.

Well, maybe I should have tad more patience in waiting (in vain) for your sms, yeah? (;

Y'know my dear, everyone has a limit to how much they can wait.

No doubt that you're extremely patient t me. But for me, I can't tolerate myself either.

Well, I guess I've said what I wanna say le. Kthxbai.

2009-05-13T23:37:00.003+08:00

New icons that I made after I think, a year?
I lost all skills of photoshopping now. ):

Leave comments pls :D

Slightly Scandalous by Mary Balogh

2009-05-13T15:15:00.004+08:00

It's been ages ever since I'm intrigued by a storybook. Genuinely nice book, I would say (;
Perhaps I've never been attracted by a book like this before. No books give me the feeling of wanting to read again cause it won't be boring even though I knew the story.
What's more, it's historical romance. It doesn't matter that it's historical, what matters was that it's romance =x

Dumb reaction but well..
Felt rather happy for the couple in the book.
Read a short chapters of on other books like Slightly Married and Slightly Wicked. None entice me as much as Slightly Scandalous does. Teehee.
I'll probably intro this book to people above sixteen, unless matured. Lols

Overall, I'll give this book a rating of 5 out of 5. First book that caught my attention (:

Heeheehee. My Restaurant City (RC) in fb is level 10 liao! :DD
FAF also not bad. Catching up with boyf liao. HEEHEE. =x

Alright. I'm off t study now! TA-TA!

2009-05-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

Can't be bothered to advertise
Can't be bothered to do rational things

This is not me
Am I losing me

Fill in the notations yourself

2009-05-11T02:08:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeeeeee. Finally get to post, but at this kind of time, it's not a nice one. xD

Friday, 080509.
Went out for Sakae buffet with clique <3
Initially didn't want to go, but I gave word t gy long ago.
Plus, on th day itself, planning was screwed. Don't know whether t go eat Seoul Garden or Sakae.
At first didn't know th price, then boyf told me S.G student buffet ends at 4pm and th next buffet will cost $29.99+++. I see th price alr super turn off liao. =x
Blah blah blah.
We ended up going Sakae. (x
Each person costs $18.75 i think. Cause I ordered 2 cups of green tea.
But there says free flow of green tea ma!
Never trust Sakae, people ):

090509
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GUIYAN. (:
Know you for four years le. This year is th fifth.
That means you're getting older, like me also! :DD
-hugs- Happy birthday (:

100509.
Got wedding dinner! :D
I can't rmb his name, but he's my 2nd uncle's son. Lols
Buffet in th afternoon, dinner in th night.
I think I'm th most lap sup girl you can find.
Tee-shirt and jeans was what I wore when every female is wearing dress =.=
Um, I did notice only one girl who wore jeans too..

I think th places that can take photos without guys laughing at you is here..

My hair looks super nice luh. Then again, it's not. One side is curled but th other side is not =.=
I only curl one side due to time constraint.
But I quite like th results of th curled one. Super nice please :DD
The vest I had on me was super ugly when I wore it. Totally don't match my outfit.

When we're going home, 1st uncle took one flower from th bride's bouquet of flower and give me younger sis (cause no one wants it).
Then mummy saw it and took a bunch back! Lols

After that she passed t me, then I was like, 0.0
The bride throw then mummy caught it? And I kept laughing like crazy. Lols
Only when I asked then I know is mummy go and take one.
Mummy so cute lah. (x

So yepps, 6 white roses back home. Hahahhas

Nice right? I meant th flowers, not me ._________.

Exams.

2009-05-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

HELLLOOOOOOO! Starting from tmr onwards, I'm having exams! Mid-year exams dah.
Lucky Adi! He no need go sch for 3 days. Too bad for Sy. He everyday one paper. Lols.
One paper jiu go home liao. Waste time. =x

Tmr going eat sakae with clique, like finally!
Finally a day out with them!
It's either they busy or I no time/money, then end up nvr go out.
But this time I also broke, but will still be going, cause don't know when's th next time we can see each other liao.
My "tattered and torn" amaths textbook goes to... *drum rolls*
JESLIN!
Congrats. (:
Thanks for clearing my amaths tb because of your course xD

Now my blogshop is rotting. lol.
Never advertise le. Boring shitz.
Gotta study. But someone haven't give me my external allowance D:

2009-05-04T23:04:00.001+08:00

Gone, and not coming back.

2009-04-26T20:16:00.006+08:00

I think gy must have felt "WHAT TO DO?!?!?!?!" when choosing which poly course she wants.
I kinda understand it now..
I wonder what I should do.
After O's, I'm gna work.
But when results come and it's my turn to choose the courses, I wonder what I'd choose.
No goal. Where shall I go after that?
Suddenly feel that I'm not prepared at all, when I thot I am.

Shall I work one year and then think of where I should head towards to? My life's screwed anyway.

WHERE TO GO?

Oh, and I realised that I feel good pulling myself down.
Hmmm, perhaps that's what people say as self-pity? Aww man. I didn't meant to self pity myself. * rolls eyes and mumbles 'as if' *
Blogshop is fail, me too. Those who agree, tag and scream "AGREEEE!" (:

4 hours straight in library tday.
I gave up on maths after doing for less than 15 mins.
I don't know how t do, no one t ask also.
Seems like history is repeating itself :/

"CARELY, Stop looking at clothes from taiwan. You can't fit them at all!" exclaimed my mind.

2009-04-24T18:04:00.004+08:00

I realized something..
I'm addicted to sleeping on boyf's bed rather than mine and I don't know why.
His bed, damn nice luh =x
His entire room got his smell, his bolster, pillow, blanket and even his bedsheets got his smell. =x
I always tend to fall asleep on his bed like aft around a few mins. Hugged his bolster t sleep, most of th time. If not is his pillow.
The feeling is like, hugging him t sleep (x hehs. Nice feeling (:
And I realised that I always always don't wanna wake up after falling asleep. =x

Lil things make people happy.
Sometimes, even lil things like me sleeping on boyf's bed can make me happy, feel contented. And I only realised this when I was playing fb games. Ridiculous. I wonder why I nvr realise that earlier.

Boyf, sorry for my tone this aftn.
Forgive me 'kay? ((:

2009-04-23T19:20:00.002+08:00

Y'know, everyday, every meal when you eat.. you can choose t make sounds or not.
For me, it really disgust me to hear sounds from people who are eating sweets, drinking soup and etc.
I always rmb that when my younger sister, trying t act stupid and sip th soup so loud that I would be so disgusted and say "why you drink like that? drink properly like a girl can?"
So today, during recess time, yy came over to my class and I was sitting outside asking Adi some chem stuff (cause bef that got chem test). She came to me and said "Heh, wo you tang (I got a sweet)". Anyone hear that would stretch out their hand and ask for one. Then she say "wo zhi you yi ge (I only got one)".
I sian diao and said "then why you say you got -.-?"
Follow grace they all to toilet. In th toilet itself, she was chewing th sweet, damn loud can. I felt utterly disgusted and had th urge to just give her one tight slap. Even sy dont even do that luh!
Girl acting like a boy ._____. Very cool meh? Downright disgusting.

Today damn warm luh. Went down for recess, back to class and th back of my shirt is wet! Like, I never encountered this before luh. =x Never run also so sticky at th end of th day ):

Chem remedial start first. I think if really wanna have a good laugh, funny chem lessons are good enough, lols.
Potato bought a cake for edmund wor ~
Just nice yesterday was yong san's (whom i call san) birthday.
Why I call him san? Cause he everytime nvr react fast enough. Then I call fast so just cut short his name =x
Next is phys. Can't wait to go home liao. I think chem at 2nd hour is better. (x

Boyf. Boyf. Boyf.
Where are you? ~~

2009-04-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

Today no school, like yay! HEHE
Why no school?
Cause mr simpson say sch's cca did sch proud, so give us one day holiday to celebrate.
Mdm K treat bio students t watch fast& furious 4. But I watched it with boyf alr, so yepps, nvr go in th end.

Met boyf in northpoint tday. First thing to go was th arcade ~.~
As usual, he settled down in wmmt machine, then i saw zy, tgt with jia wei, hong xian and joel. Eddie was there too.
Ate lunch around 2+ at kfc. On th way there, i saw yong kiat, xiang zhi, guan quan, fiona, wei xin, pamphylia. Smiled at th fiona, weixin and pam, but they saw me and treated me as transparent =.= forever like that one. I think th only time I talked t weixin were th times jieying was around.

Blahblahblah.

Thank you boyf for coming t find me (:

Anyway, Doreen, I can't view your blog.
Virus detected.

2009-04-21T00:36:00.002+08:00

Every night, daddy will open the door.
He sees me using lappy and then he'll say "eh, still dont want slp ah? Bad habit come back again hor?"
To them, using comp/lappy is forever a bad habit.
Like what idioms say "A leopard will never change its spots".
Does it really refer to me?

I know they are worried.
They're worried that the same thing will happen again like last year.
Last year, I didn't even have the heart to study.
With lappy or not, it doesn't matter. Cause I didn't even want to study.

This year, I'm forced.
None of my clique will pick up their book and study with me.
Like what my mum always say, I am really lagging behind all of them.

Well, forget it.
My opinions does not affect anyone in th family at all..

2009-04-16T20:15:00.006+08:00

Muscle ache everywhere ):
Cause of th 5 stations ytd, yes I know I'm noob.

This is what sy told me:
Tday during mass run, sy went t 5na there find fren. (idk if is before or after, i guess is after)
Then when he called out his fren's name, this guy called Jun Jie aka JJ (as what yy called him) sneered at him and said "cheh! retain de!"
Of course, sy super angry, and then he scold him.
That guy daring, jio sy one-on-one.
-blah blah blah-
Then during chinese lesson (free periods), sy told me that he called maomao aka nicholas, terence and told them what happened. And he called kng t tell him that also.
(paused!)
As a retainee, I can only say that we do not wish to stay back one more year either. What's so fun about staying back another year?
This batch, a lot of them are all retainees and have at least retained one year.
Names? Me, adi, sy, nicholas, terence, cheng liew, wei song, renata, li qun, jannah, aisyah, kun yuan, zhang yuan, larhvin th idiot, kavita, prasanth. Even in 5na, there are people who are once in express who drop to normal acad, take edbert for an example jiu can liao.
Mind you, this is only th names of those who retained before in express stream (except nicholas sy say de). Not counting th normal acads who stayed back this year.
This year got 21 people who retained. If include renata, cheng liew, wei song, terence and nicholas, got 26 people who retained; enough to form a normal tech class okay!

(back to story)

Sy after school waited for him. Then initially he want to hit him one.
But nicholas say he buay song that guy, so he whacked him.
Hahahs, during chinese lesson, sy told me that if that guy choose terence, he cham, cause terence got learn taewkando. Choose maomao aka nicholas, also cham, cause he also can fight. Choose kng, even worse, even sy kenna kng de one punch also feel super pain liao. Plus, kng straight away hit face. If choose sy, sy cfm anyhow whack him even if that guy punch him back. See, isn't that JJ say incurring all retainees' wrath?

'Nuff said.

Today is Garage sale ~~
I WAS in th commitee, but Ms Tang told me to let Edmund go in.
Rawr! Last 2 yrs Mrs Ho nvr give chance t those who want do, this year also cannot ):
My class selling flowers ~
All sold too!

AND, today is Ms Tang's birthday!
So they bought a cake, which I think just nice enough, cause 6-people-commitee (for garage sale) was not around, CO people went to Chongfu pri to perform for their founder's day. Like yay!
That was after school, btw.
So I ate cake. Hehs (x
Blackforest cake with thick chocolate taste ~
Yumyum. (x

Oh yeah, before phys remedial start, I found a marker at whiteboard there, so I went t draw a tortoise. Then jia wee that ass go put "Mr Neo" and draw an arrow pointing th tortoise!
Luckily my handwriting is totally different!
Some knew I drew it, cause Ms Tng asked who draw but no one raised up hands.
Was giggling through and she didn't realised. lol

During cake-cutting, Raman went to use Wendy's zippo and burn Rohiyzat's hair. So sad for him lah. Me and Adi didn't know until Hidayat came over and told us. Then both of us was laughing super loud, even when singing birthday song! lols.

I today then realised that a lot of chem stuffs, like maths, moved to pure chem le.
Last year xin xin ku ku learn de "No. of particles = no. of mol x 6 x 10^24" NOW DON'T HAVE LE! Went up to pure chem! Wahh, waste my brain de memory space for unimportant formula =x

After school, walked with Adeline and Grace and someone Doreen dislike.
So good of Adeline and Grace to wait for me while I rush home and shower. Cause I going khatib to search for BlueKey, a Jap brand for removing stains and etc. End up can't remove -.- th stain on my shirt is too long le ): Thanks for Adeline, who brought me there, else I didn't know got direct bus =x

AND, I forgot that I meeting my spree-er luh! Asked my sis to rush down to mrt station to pass me th clothes. Told her to take bus, but th bus super slow and she ran all th way t th mrt station.

Took 811E back to Yishun bus interchange. Initially was thinking if I wanna board, so I went in front and saw th destination. So I board th bus! Else I don't know how long I need to walk to th mrt station.

-Yawns-
Quite tired today..
Rushing here and there.

Oh yeah, while I was waiting for my sis, I saw this guy wearing this shirt:

So nice luh. (x
Waiting for my 2nd batch of threadless tees, then got couple shirt with boyf! (:
And that's like, finally!
But he say super PDA. ):
PDA right? Don't wear okay? Just like th blue shirt I gave you, no need wear, got inside cupboard can liao hor? =xx

Monday mastery test: Social studies
Doreen, study hor! And come school on monday! (x

2009-04-15T16:17:00.007+08:00

DAMN IT LAH!
BLOGGER ATE MY POST UP. WTH ~
LAZY TO RE-TYPE EVERYTHING AGAIN. ZZZ

2009-04-11T21:31:00.005+08:00

I think I have major problems with myself, seriously.
I'm starting to dislike myself more and more.
Looking my reflection on th mirror really makes me feel like "punching" myself in th mirror.
Who cares if I did bleed or not. :/
How I wish I can just vanish, then no need to see myself.
I hate th fact that I AM fat.
I AM overweight.
Overweight = fat, imo.
Dont believe?
I'm wearing US girls L size, guys XS.
So I guess next time I just shop in men's category. Even better.
Shipping won't kill me cause I'm fat.
How disgusting can this be.
You may say this is self-pitying, but it's th fact and I'm not.

I had enough of advertising my blogshop.
I had a hard time struggling to keep it open.
I'm earning shitz out of it.
Barely even 5% of th total amount a person buy.
How pathetic could it be?
It's hard to ask your friends to spread th word.
How many can they spread?

I don't wanna close it down.
I've put in so much, and saw that little results.
And now I have to close it down..
Isn't it a bit too cruel?
But what can I and am suppose to do?
I know this is my 2nd year, but am I suppose to keep stretching my hand towards my parents for money when they themselves do not have enough?
Who am I suppose to rely on other than myself?

Oh yes, on th issue of me being fat.
To boyf, you told me t thank my sch for having mass run and all that kind of rubbish.
In fact, I don't. I abhor this sch. I abhor th principal.
I abhor what they did to me.
Before I went back to sch, I was, and never once was I overweight.
After I went back to sch, food consumption increased and has never decrease since then.
You said exercise is th way to go.
3 months have past.
Did I lose weight? No, I didn't. But I gained 5kg.

Thank you, f-ed up school.

And now with that TAF club (nicely-put-ppc*), I wish I get gastritis right away, everyday.
What about stomach ulcer if gastritis not severe enough?
I can't believe I'm actually saying all these in hope to slim down and excuse myself from all th rubbish. -dream on-

*ppc stands for peak performance club

Okay, after you read this, feel free to msn or call me to give me a scolding, only if you're not back home super late like 4am in th morn. (:

I know I've missed being in th presence of God again...

[edit]
Suddenly had this thought..
Will me and boyf ever get married?
I remember there's once where he told me, study hard now, go poly then uni.
Thinking back, what about us?
[/edit]

2009-04-10T13:13:00.006+08:00

BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! :D
Had my birthday at boyf's place. (x
Thank you for having th thot of celebrating (:

So..
Yesterday before I left house, I tried all th shirts that I bought :DDD

I couldn't wear th last one ):
I feel damn fat ok? Even th school says so.
Hence they came up with this:

Taken right after I read finish, during assembly

I was like, (*&^%$#@$%^&*()_(*&^%$#@%^&*()! I KENNA-ED!
In my mind was like, wahlau eh, I come back sch study, now give me this kind of shitz. Everyday go home tired like siao already still need go for this stupid thing. I fail O's again = go ite leh! School won't take me back liao lor!

And I went on and on and on.
Wendy tore off th paper th moment she read finish.
Me? I didnt. But I tore it off as I was walking back to class and talking with Airena and Adeline .____.

Effing stupid.
Boyf told me not to go.
How I wish I don't need.
Don't go still need to attend detention or do corrective work order (CWO).
Finish liao still must attend. Ayes, stupid school right?
I really wonder this is a prison or a school (that is really meant for studying).
Whatever we do now is like, in prison! -exclaims-

Can someone just change that effing stupid principle?
Oh yes, I bet 3/4 of the school kenna. My class alone got 17 students who kenna, including me. So th whole school add up tgt, at least got 3/4 of th whole school tio this stupid thing.
Who cares about their health when they are doing badly in their academics?

"Care will be taken to ensure that your child/ward to balance his/her academics and CCA responsibilities as well."
-PUI!- A whole let of crap and BULLSHITTTTT!

I'm gonna complain to the VP if there's any days I'm effing tired and unable to my work. If he says it's my problem, I'm gna tell him that I can't possibly sleep in class. Too tired will affect my concentration and gradually, I'll get effing bad results like last year.

How I wish Mr. Gan is still in school...

[edit]
Anyway, went down to th market just now t hunt for bargains (x
Wanted t buy a top, 10$, but it's printed.
Printed stuff make fat people look fatter.
So, forget it, and I didn't buy.
Saw a stall with super duper chio bags.
Didn't ask for price though. Hehs (x

Then I went on hunting for more clothes.
Saw another stall selling denim skirts!
Wanted it, but it's way too short! ):
Ends at th thighs there. ):
I wanted it ):
But well, I didnt. ><
[/edit]

2009-04-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Update tmr.

2009-04-07T23:06:00.002+08:00

Jeslin = purple
Me = pink

hello

hhie

T.T jes ah.. yanying is driving me crazy =x

she everyday oso talk to me lo

what she talk t you about?

abt her competition lor
aiyo

you can ignore her on msn. i everyday go sch with her leh!!
T.T

lolx
i keep saying o.o , lolx
hahas
nia

i buay tahan liao.
she msn whine jiu nvrm liao. every morn still whine

wad she talk to u i mean

every morn talk t me about how her competitions is blah blah blah. almost repeating th same thing
everyday!!!!!

yaya!
like as if i noe e competition like dat
den say wad her coach pull all hopes on her

like, zzz. all hods are putting a lot of hopes on us, these retainees also

ya lor
aiyo..everyday say e same thing

worse thing is, she tries t be humble but in fact, it's not humble, it's boasting. last wed till now, she keep on saying no need go lessons cause of her competition. like i care? then i finally realise why sometimes her classmates dislike her so much

ya lor she oso told me this
den i say gd lor
hahas

it's like, zzz. sec 5 liao, also have th thinking "can siam lessons jiu siam lessons"

siam some more lor..den she'll regret =x

ahha! all th best =xx
th other time, idk if she was really upset about her results or what. english fail, get f9. rest of th subjs all whole lot better than mine.
AND THEN SHE COMPLAINT HER RESULTS SUCKS!

ya

wth.

she oso said this b4
she still said , hey i scored this this this marks
den i keep ohh-ing

like damn hao lian

precisely =.=

my next 6 mths. you de shou liao ):
during o lvls, i cfm go sch myself and go hme myself.

now diff

dont even want t talk t her. talk t her = demoralise yourself
meaning?

wahaha
cos got her so diff liao

wth leh. then i told adi that yy keep on whining t me. so tday i told adi that i nearly fell aslp when maths teacher came in, then he say i whine -.-
i think no one can stand yy de whining

hahas

want peng san liao ):

LOL

ytd even more zai. she ask me for my blogshop url.
so i gave her.

den she wanna buy meh?

you cfm curious what she want ma. i ask her she dont reply me. then i bo bian i nudge her and say "hello? hello? reply pls ~"
then she give me her usual sian diao answer "what?"

still wad some more

(imagine th "what?" said by her, with her tone of voice

tsk tsk

wahh. talk t her can die lor

bo liao lor
ask ppl de dun wanna say =.=|

precisely!
her qn, in fact also nvr ask politely. she just say "whats's your blogshop url?"

LOL
aiyo~~

then got one time, more pu wey. i borrowed 3$ from her, told her next month then can return her, she next day keep on making noise i nvr return her money

wth?? LOL

untill th day i return her! then on th day i returned her, she say what "wo dou bu ji zhe yong, man man lai lah"

thought she v rich de?

pui! that's a lie.
her family is those which, "ke yi guo yi tian jiu guo yi tian"
use money like water like that

ya lor

hahahs. one funny one. got one morn she ask me, (in front of her mum), that day got morning run, so she ask "why you everytime wear same thing ah?"
like duh! cannot wear home clothes -__-
she herself also wearing almost th same thing everyday

HAHAHA
LAME

got one more i forgot liao
lols

LOL
seems like so many 'probs'

she stupidly followed me laughing at my classmates also -___- cause they haven learn finish th syllabus, but i finished liao.
then she laughed at them cause they havent finish
-.-

laugh? lols

she herself also havent finish luh

ya lor..
like laughing at herself too
wahaha

oh yes, i rmbed.
she's damn petty, and expects others not to be.

lols
she so contradicting

got one time, early morn, "joke" with her only and then she said "ni qu si lah! ni mama de!"
like, wth.
so i say, dont anyhow scold my mum, how would you feel if i do that?

lame
jokes nia

and you know what she say? "say lor!"

taking it so seriously =.=

wth leh. i hate and despise ppl who say my parents
what she said, really reflects on her attitude

she seems like nonchalent over her parents?

yeaa
and then when she make a joke of me, she expect me not t do anything cause i know is a joke.

lamer

this is before i return her that 3$. th other time her mum, dont know is purposely or what, cause i told yy i no money return her, need t save money, then her mum say "she at least know how to save money. i save and scrimp so much, only got 30$, you one time spend all finish" (in chinese)

she said her own daughter?

yeaa
yy's mum say yy

LOL
shld say louder wad
wahaha

i jitao wanna laugh liao lor. to me, it's super shameful that at this kind of age still dont know how t save money. at least i know how i can force myself to save money, she dont

ya

plus, i buy de things, which is over 60$, is use my own money. i open blogshop de earnings to buy de. not get from my mum

ya

my bus fare, if possible i also top up myself liao

dat's a gd practice?

cause i lazy walk from my place t bus interchange. then i take bus. cant possibly keep taking from my mum de ma
but for her, she thinks it's perfectly ok t get money from mum

wow
she no plans de lor

to think that her mum want to bring her up to uni leh! idk if she really intend to work or not lor. her parents working, but income add up not more than 1k a month
she herself also applied for FAS

wahh den she shld hv more initiative wad

which i think she apply just for lowered O lvl fees and free uniforms and pe tee shirts

icic

so what else she say t you?

her mass run lo
den jus now she said wad her hand pain

den i ignored

hand pain? pls lor. her ear pain she alr say she unwell liao. sometimes hor, her hand pain is a lie too.

lolx
i oso dun care

2009-04-06T18:07:00.003+08:00

I thot of this interesting blogging material for all of you! Hahahas

A few weeks, maybe one or two months ago, boyf gave me this:

I was curious, of course! But I left it inside in my room for at least 3 weeks. =x

Today when I came home, my mum told me that the table that's causing "jams" inbetween my bed and it was gone! Apparently I didn't notice that lah..

Then I saw this:

tgt with this:

I open the packet of sweets and ate one. (x
The yellow packaging is apple flavour, pink packaging is raspberry flavour and purple packaging is grape flavour. I don't really know what to choose, so I took the raspberry one.

After fixing the "dustbin" (which is a plastic bag tied to the window using a shoelace so that it can be at a corner), I saw th other one. (Not th sweets lah!)

I opened it with curiosity and I really didn't know what I am supposed to do.
So I filled it to the level as per instructions, mixed it and dumped the fishes in (There's a total of 6 fishes, 3 yellow, 3 pink).
I don't know what happened, so I ate a yellow one without knowing.
In my mind, I was thinking "it's a sweet what! Why need use the water and etc? Make it to be gummy bear meh?"
But no! It started to form into jelly. Like, omgosh. LOL
After I ate one. ._.
So, only 5 fishes left.

There's even a biscuit scoop! If you noticed, cause only a lil part of it is shown.
Like, WOW? And I haven't check on it yet. Hahahas

Oh yes, the packet of Hello Kitty sweets came with this teeny weeny sticker too:

Super cute, hehs (x

Was telling Adi that boyf say that suckers like me will buy all those cute but good-for-nothing things. And guess what he say?

"True what."

.____.

Oh yeaa, and last friday was sport's day. Th "sian-est" in school.
This time round is real liao, never go = punishment.
Miss Tang said this "I don't get it, this is a school event. It means that it is compulsory..."
And I wrote on a paper telling Adi "Passion arts also school event, but it's not compulsory." (x

I ran a total of 15 rounds round the class today, in just TWO periods of chemistry!
Dang it Marcus. Stop calling me to help you. I can't even help myself .___.
I dont like that potato, he made me tear after his lesson, when mr low used 1 emaths period for his amaths again.
I vent all my anger on a piece of paper. (x
It's all because I don't know QA effing well ):

Forget it, hahas.
That packet of "fishes and the water" cheered me up liao. (:

[edited]
Oh yes, today during bio lesson, mdm K was teaching variation; continuous and discontinuous.
She said that the size of your hand is continuous variation, which is determined by a number of genes.
In my mind, I wanted, really wanted to ask her this "Cher, you sure it's continuous variation? Everyone in my family have bigger hand size than me, even my youngest sister, her hand size is around 3/4 of mine alr."
But I didn't and kind of laughed the whole lesson through.

Alright, I go see that "jelly sweet" now!
[/edited]

2009-04-02T19:55:00.002+08:00

Wahhhh! Super tired.
Really no mood to advertise my blog liao.
No one's helping me to manage also.
Really tiring to advertise when I'm back home.
My network not big also. Hard to spread word around and get people to buy from me ):

Well, what can I do leh?
Wait luh. lol.

2009-04-01T22:49:00.004+08:00

WAHAHAHA. Today is wednesday! And that means two more days to weekend!!
Damn tiring ):

Today during P.E..
Haven't run only jiu gastric pain liao. ):
But I ran for warm up.
Then start t have symtoms of gastric pain liao.
Supposed t run four rounds round th hockey field, but I run two rounds and I gave up.
The pain was really, unbearable. ):

And..
GUIYAN! YOU THIS BO JIO KIA!! =xx
Never jio me go watch movie ~~~~~~~
I don't want boyf to watch with me, he says it's boring..
Want find you all go watch movies also so xin ku ><
Well well, nevermind then.
Apology accepted (:

Hokay, I bought a new bag! HEHEH. (x
$9.50 for a used-3-days-bag =x
It's nice nevertheless. Hehs.
Was telling my mum that this bag could be th cheapest bag with such good condition I have ever bought.
The bag really looks brand new, and so, yay for me :D
I've got a cheap deal this time (:

After boyf wanganing for the entire day, I started to ignore him. >=(
Then I cried =x
And fell asleep.
He missed called me, smsed me.
And this morning when I reply his sms (thinking that he is still sleeping), he called me! So yeaa, he never sleep for th whole night because of me. I feel so guilty for not replying his smses and calls yesterday ):
If not he'd be sleeping and wont lose sleep because of me. ><

Hmmm, I wanna change phone. Slim phones. Hehs.
I thought of w880i, but i dont think now got people selling leh. ):
Quite ex if people are selling for more than 120.
If is me, max I'd pay is only 120 and nothing more, else I go dig for other deals.

Boyf asked me what I wanted for my birthday ever since this afternoon.
Actually I also don't know. lol. (x

Alright, I go memorize the QA table now, else tmr kenna called and scolded by that potato for not memorizing again ): Then have to run round th class again! T.T

[edit]
Oh yes, HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY! :D
[/edit]

2009-03-29T14:56:00.004+08:00

This week = retail therapy! :DD
though there's test next week!

So what did i buy? THREADLESS TEES! :D

Here are th pictures of th tees.

ONE.

(left to right) front, back

TWO.

(up to down) front, back

THREE.

FOUR.

FIVE.

I wanted this too, but no stock liao.

This also.

A lot of th tees are super cute, sadly all oos. ):

I bought 6 tees altogether! :D
5 for me, 1 for boyf. :P
Bought two identical but different sizes, hehs.
Couple tees :P

Now raining liao..
Luckily I went to shut th windows properly else I think my room will be wet liao.
Raindrops fell on th edge of my windows, so when I open my windows = water will be splashing in.

Geog mastery test tmr and I'm still not studying and I only studied a bit during my free lessons this week. ><

Anyway, I'm opening Maple Syrup #1; accessories spree as well as Forever 21 #5.
Join if possible, http://rainydaysyo.blogspot.com (:

2009-03-25T18:52:00.002+08:00

YAYs! I've finally re-opened my blog. Hehs (x
From now on, livejournal will be my private journal, and only bf can see =x
Isn't OH-SUNNY DAYS so nice? (x
Just a random name.

Well, as you guy know, I've changed my msn.
And for once, I really can't bear with my voguecrown- ):
Got attached by it cause I knew bf better through that. Lols.

Anyway, click my nuffnang ads everyday ok? (: